Ben walking!

It has been some time since I last posted and so much has happened.  The most amazing thing is that Ben has started walking independently.  A real testament to my baby boy's persistence.  He worked so hard to become an independent little walker.  Lots of falls and bruises.  Ben is so incredibly proud of himself, as he should be.  I think, more than most things right now, he loves to walk around and explore.  I can't describe the feeling I have when I watch him.  It makes me think all things are possible.

Ben and Chloe

Ben is love

I read this wonderful post by a friend of mine today (http://jentrified.wordpress.com/2012/01/21/carpe-diem-or-not/).  She says, "Each moment is an opportunity, not to be blissed out or to deny challenges, but to choose LOVE, and to learn that LOVE is the ultimate goal–the way to get an A+ in the school of life."  By this definition, Ben has already earned an A+.  Ben gives me pure, unadulterated love - every day, no, every minute - of his precious life. 
I've been struggling so much lately to find my purpose in life.  I know, deep in my heart, that there is a purpose, but I have not been able to feel it or verbalize it.  If Jen is right, and choosing LOVE is our purpose, then the mechanics of what I do every day don't matter as much as the intention with which I do them.  Maybe my brain needs to take a break and let my heart lead.